I know we've all experienced periods of our lives like this -- the sh-t comes at us faster than we can process it. I'm in the middle of one of those.
My brother-in-law died the other day, and I'm in Ohio with my family for his funeral. It came from nowhere. He was 58, healthy, but hadn't been feeling well for about a week. He dropped dead in in the parking lot of his doctor's office. Blood clots in his lungs. No one saw it coming. So now he's gone, leaving my sister, their two adult children, one grandchild, another grandchild just about to enter the picture, nieces and nephews. And everyone is wandering around the house looking lost, wondering if they should have picked up on some clue that would have saved his life, reliving the last conversations they had with him, crying and laughing in equal measure -- and half expecting him to walk in the front door with his computer bag on his shoulder.
His death hit us on an average Thursday, when we were just trying to get through whatever was on our schedule -- page proofs, football practices, job deadlines, changing diapers, starting new careers. . . At times like these, people always say "life is too short," or "live every day to the fullest." We were doing just that. And we were still alive on Friday to do it all over again, but Bill wasn't.
Yes, I know I’m a lousy blogger. I’ll try to do better, though I’m not convinced anyone cares what I did over my summer vacation or the latest hilarious antics of my dogs. But, on the off chance that someone out there actually comes to my website to read my blog, could you let me know? Send me an email, maybe?
Here’s my pledge – if I get three people (not counting my mother) who email me to tell me they truly want to read my blog, then I’ll promise to contribute a new musing at least once a week. This should be interesting, and I’ll be sure to let you all know how this experiment turns out. Hey, I’ll blog about it!